totally freaking out
For shits ‘n giggles, tonight I used an OPK and an HPT. More for the sheer rush of POAS than anything else.
Well damn if there isn’t 2 lines on BOTH tests. Two pink lines. Both tests. Which is really fucked up because I THOUGHT I just had AF. Except that it was light. And orange. (I know… I’ve already kicked my own ass about not calling my OB about that one….)
So. Why am I not happy? Because I just finished taking 100mg of clomid for 5 days. Yeah. And I might be pregnant. Which means I may have already fucked up my unborn child. This is just super.
I’m pretty much freaking out right now.
Please no happy congratulations until I figure out what’s going on. I’m hoping it’s a false positive and that I haven’t fucked up my baby already.
Thanks for listening.
I’m not saying anything…except I am praying about it all for you, if you don’t mind that is!
Wha?
I don’t know what to say other than I’m thinking of you and hoping for the very very very best.
Just a quickie note, here because I’m not even sure of the response, if any, you left for me last time, you know, of my long-winded comment. I’m not sure what type of way you felt.
Anyway, even though I don’t put much “tahdoo” into being college educated, I do know a little something about the human race, and because I have taken courses in Biology, and related courses, the “breeding drive” is the strongest drive we humans have. I’m not saying the “sex drive”, even though that’s strong, but it’s for a reason. The reason is that evolutionarily speaking, creating humans “to carry on” is what we are supposed to do.
All of that being said, I’ll “cut to the chase.” Babies are strong, pretty much at any stage of development. Don’t forget, the placenta DOES do it’s work, and even in cellular or early phases, babies “bounce back” from “bad stuff”, and babies “bounce off” “bad stuff.” Many babies and children I know back this “theory”,… most of my friends did something before they found out. Actually, I think all of them did, and, sadly, some of them didn’t stop doing these things, like smoking, etc, and their babies are BEAUTIFUL…(I know many, many more stories…)
Take care,
ME
Okay, Just a little note here, I got a positive pregnancy test with Ivy after a night of heavy drinking that i dont actually remember all of it. Top that off with the fact that at that time I was apparently 6 weeks pregnant and was smoking a pack a day And Drank at least 3 beers a night and got hammered every weekend. And you have seen Ivy. She is a perfect little girl with nothing wrong. Im a firm beleiver in the just stop when you know theory , and dont worry about it. Baby’s are resilliant, especially when they are not even born yet!
Wow. Keep us poste. Sending you postive thoughts!
Thanks Sam. You’re right, Ivy is a perfect little girl… makes me feel a lot better.
I’m still waiting to talk to my OBGYN (hopefully tomorrow). But I’m definitely pregnant. Not sure how far along… somewhere around 5 weeks I suspect.
We’re not telling anyone else until we know that everything is okay.