(not so) Evil Clomid

… it’s 12:30am and I couldn’t sleep.

DH pointed out to me today that we have no baby monitor. Not that we didn’t have one all picked out…we just never got around to ordering it. So I got out of bed to do that because I couldn’t stop thinking about it.

I bought the Angel Care monitor…. normally $149.99 but Sears had it on for $139.99 … and then I had a code for $20 off any online order (see? it pays to do nothing but search the internet for coupons and freebies ) So I only paid $119.99 for it. Yay me! They said it should be delivered by Nov. 8th …. hopefully Thor holds out that long…

Well…I guess I should go try and sleep now….

I had my 36 week checkup today.  My blood pressure meds are helping and the doctor has ordered me on bed rest.  And that’s really all I have to say on that subject.

In other news…I’ve changed my mind.  I don’t want to give birth.  This little baby can stay right where he is at forever if that’s what he wants.  We’re happy like this..why change it?

I know, I know…I’m sounding crazy.  But, I just received some horrible news that has frightened me about this next step … birth.

A friend of mine - an online friend - who has been near and dear to me throughout the pregnancy (we are due close together) had a scheduled c-section last week.  Her baby is healthy and she has two small boys at home as well.  But a few dayslater…she died.  I’m still not clear on all the details, I only know that she died as a result of the c-section.

…and now I’m terrified of giving birth.  Not to mention the fact that I’m trying to keep calm while grieving for this wonderful woman, who at the age of 26 has been taken from her family without any rhyme or reason…

I am so ready for this little dude to make his entrance to the world….

I don’t think he’ll wait 37 more days.  Or maybe that’s just wishful thinking…

….I updated the Belly page with a 33 week shot… in my new PJ’s and baring the belly to the world for the first time!

Well I went grocery shopping today.  And now I’m exhausted…LOL

I ran into a couple of friends - one of which has been very ill lately and I was so happy to see him up and about. :D  Unfortunately my eyeBROW has not yet been waxed and I felt like crap…ugh.

Good news is that I’m going for an eyebrow wax tomorrow…yay!

So…while I was shopping I managed to get a case of diapers for $10 and a tub of wipes for $1.50 — I used the store sale plus my manufacturer coupons… I’m so proud of myself!

It’s official. I hate the 3rd trimester. I am getting NO sleep and I’m friggin’ exhausted. And I have such. bad. heartburn.

Yeah…that’s my whine-fest for this morning.

Now back to our regular scheduled programming….

edit: this is how I imagine my labour going…

Here is Ashley when she was just about a year old… poor thing played so hard that day.

I’m posting this picture for a contest… hoping to win the Summer Breeze set (country pine)- because I just love the curvy lines!  And now with the second child on the way…we’re going to need new furniture.

Well here I am.  32 weeks pregnant and I finally have the crib set up.  Honestly, I never thought I’d see the day where I was getting ready for my baby to arrive.  Made by me…it’s crazy.  By the time he arrives it will be 3 years since we started seriously trying to build our family.  And nearly a year since we lost our first baby.  It’s been a long time and a lot of struggles to get to this point.  And now I’m completley ready to be done this pregnancy…I’m so anxious to finally meet my baby boy.

We live in a 2 bedroom apartment so for now Ashley & Thor will have to share a room… so here’s what it looks like today: